I Caught Myself....


I never think it will happen again, but I caught myself forgetting it ever did.

I always thought I would pay attention, but I caught myself being oblivious to the signs.

I took the lesson learned so seriously, but I caught myself reliving it half-heartedly.

I saw a picture; heard a voice and I caught myself reevaluating.

If life is so important to us that we do the work of getting through each day, why is it so easy to forget the fragility of it all? Why is it that we simply ignore the facts of life...and death? It should never catch us by surprise. I has always been this way and will be until the end of time. But we are shocked, devastated and debilitated by the reality of the end of life as we know it.

No, no one died, at least no one I know....but somewhere, someone's loved one, someone's child, someone's parent, someone's friend, someone's most valued partner on this journey has gone on. And my turn is coming...it has to be coming, so I must not forget, be oblivious, relive it unemotionally, or reevaluate the price again. It will be my turn one day - to be parted or to depart. No surprises. Just peace and the knowledge that we knew it would come. I hope I catch myself....prepared.