Monday, December 31, 2007

I'm In LOVE!

I guess this should happen more times during the year, but tonight I was able to stop for a few minutes and contemplate just how in love I am:

...in love with my husband
He is truly unlike anyone else I know. He is honest, giving, caring, genuine, fun, dedicated, patient, discerning, loving, compassionate, humble - not necessarily in that order. But I could go on and on. I am most in love with him, though, not because of WHO he is, but because he is who G-D placed in my life to bless me and help me live to please the L-RD and minister to others.

...in love with my daughter
She is my pride. I truly had nothing to call "my own" of which I was truly proud until January 2007. But I want every human on earth to have the privilege of receiving the affection she so freely gives. To see her smile is to see G-D's own peace on earth. To feel her warm embrace is to know what true affection feels like. To experience her, with her warm kisses, her bright eyes, her infectious laugh, her sweet voice, her intelligent interaction is to experience a miracle. She is what we always prayed and pray for: a blessing.

...in love with my friends
I have great friends, probably the best on earth. They have seen me through so much and each one of them deserves a big ol' trophy to sit on the mantle just for putting up with me. I with I had more time to spend with them, but their affection for my husband and daughter fill my heart with peace that I have everything I need in my friends.

...in love with my job
Oh, how I love to say that! I have THE BEST job on earth. I teach private voice lessons as well as helping recording artists in studio and live performers. I LOVE my students, I really, truly do. They are devoted to their art, so I am devoted to them.

...in love with my L-RD
There is no better company to have with my 24-7 than my Creator, Redeemer and Sustainer. HE is worthy of ALL praise - because of WHO He is, because of WHAT He does (and has done) and because of HOW He is able. I am still breathing today because of His deep, devoted love and care for me. I would absolutely give up EVERYTHING and EVERYONE I have in order to have one more day with Him. He is worth the effort to face each day, to face each trial, to cry each tear, to fight each battle, to hold on tight.

...in love with my life
I am much more than blessed...there are no words for the life I live. It far exceeds any novel, any award-winning movie, any fairytale, any fantasy, any ideological life. My life is one of redemption, salvation, sustenance, comfort, compassion, care, peace, and ultimately: love. Not the emotion "love," but the action of "love." I am living proof that you cannot believe what you see, what you hear, what you read of love. I am proof that blessing doesn't only come to the deserving. I am proof that there truly is a G-D and He truly is involved with His creation. There are no explanations for my existence. There is only the miracle of life and love.

I know 2008 (which lies virtually minutes away from me) will not only be granted to me, but will be another wonderful addition to the spectacular miracle I already live. I only pray that those who do not yet know this peaceful hope will come to recognition before time is stopped forevermore.

This time last year, I really had no idea of the goals the L-RD would accomplish in my life. But as each year passes, I get more excited to see the miraculous wonders that only the Living G-D of Israel could accomplish. He is G-D - May His NAME forever be exalted!!!

Friday, December 21, 2007

Let Me Believe!

I don't know if you've even felt this way, but every once in a while, I feel like screaming to all who can hear: "Would you JUST LET ME BELIEVE???!!!"

It seems like so many people are so bent on defending their own theology, justifying their actions and "converting" others to their personal convictions, that they leave little to no room for an individual to come to a personal understanding.

Maybe I do the same thing without meaning to , but I promise you here and now, I DO NOT want to change your mind. Have you questioned something that seems noone else has? Have you felt convicted of something that noone else seems to recognize? Have you studied to be found approved - striving for the goal which is set before you, yet noone else seems to make issue of it? Excellent!

Welcome to the club...we are loners, we are seekers, trying to find our way, not show you yours.

Just please allow me to search out my own beliefs - to test EVERYTHING and hold on to what is GOOD. He who has ears, let him hear.